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Wow, what a fuckin' week. Again I've been thru the mental & emotional wringer. The big-ass-kickin' project at work went from having a deadline of the end of this month, to being delayed til Summer, to being delayed indefinitely. I still have a ton of responsibilities to tend to, and in some ways have more pressure in that I have to find ways to keep busy & prove my ongoing value in the absence of the project load. In some ways load has been lifted.
Ya know the feeling of utter, total, complete relief when a weight has been lifted from your mind, spirit, soul, your figurative shoulders? The freedom you feel when the 800-pound gorilla has been put back in his cage? That's the way I feel right now. I got news tonight that has totally eased my mind & buoyed my spirits. There's been one issue in particular that has been gnawing at me or more deliberately worrying the shit outta me for nearly a month now. Not work-related but still ginormously stressful nonetheless. Even worse that work in some ways cuz it weighed on me even at work, when working out, when trying to sleep, first thing when I woke up each morning, this damn issue haunted me, tailed me, and preoccupied me nearly 24/7. But it's now 98.2% resolved, and I feel so much better, beyond description. I'm thankful to god, Fate & Destiny, whatever Powers That Be that cut me this break. I believe in Karma, that what comes around goes around. I'm nowhere near perfect but by & large I feel I'm a pretty good person, and I'd like to think that the break I just caught is something like good Karma coming back to me, that sometimes good things happen to good people. By no means do I have a pass to regress, slack, or slough off, and I know I still have work to do in all areas of my life, but I feel I finally got blessed. Kinda like a fat, hanging curveball on an 0-2 count. I'd like to think that my efforts to live right may be paying small dividends, but dividends that have had an exponentially huge impact. I absolutely plan to keep working to fix what's wrong w/me, right the wrongs I'm responsible for, and become a better person in each role I play in Life. I'm hoping this is just the start of a streak of good things for me, and upturn in my luck. Think positive, work hard, believe, keep the streak rollin' yo.
On a sports-related noted, Brett Favre announced his retirement this week. Not a Cheesehead myself I'm still sorry to see him go, in that I'll miss his child-like exuberance & creativity in playing football, and ad hoc brilliance. Not to mention his durability, his tenacity. Favre was also human, he admitted addiction & beat it, and dealt w/the death of his father, his wife's cancer. He wasn't perfect like Peyton Manning, didn't try to fabricate & maintain a perfect, wholesome, image (not that Manning does that, but PM just seems too damn squeaky clean). Favre was the working man's QB who also happened to be a stud football player, but also fallible, human, and one that overcame. I'll miss seeing Brett Favre play on Sunday afternoons & Monday nights, but am glad I can say I saw him play, both on TV & live & in person. A piece of the NFL has ridden off into the sunset with Brett Favre's retirement.
On another sports-related note, Spring Training MLB games have started, as the Cardinals' game-end text message scores indicated. And, the Formula One season kicks off the 16th in Australia....fuck yeah!!! I'm not knocking NASCAR - I'm a quasi fan of Tony Stewart - but I can't really watch the dudes make endless left-hand turns for 3 or 4 hours. Time for some sleek, sling-back ass-kicking machines snaking thru the streets of Monaco, circuits in Dubai, legendary tracks like Silverstone at absolutely insane speeds & ear-splitting decibels.
Well, I'm off for the night. I think I can finally get a good night of sleep tonight - a truly sound night of sleep w/a lighter mind, a lighter soul. Hope ya'll have a great weekend, and enjoyus to the maximus. BTW, if you have not yet seen 300 or Disturbia, I highly recommend it. Ciao, Peace, Over & Out.
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